This year, I went to two different countries(not Malaysia) for work, got a Specialist Diploma in Data Science and an Advanced Certificate in Learning and Performance. So random right, all these are unrelated to chemistry. Oh there's one chem-related thing, I took a 4-day HPLC software course and then revamped the results tabulation format which saved a lot of time and papers. But it wasn't a big deal since anyone who took the course could have easily done it. I also went to Japan with my friends for the first time.
Even though I only had 2 tuition sessions a week as compared to 7 last year, I didn't accomplish much of my own things. It felt like I was just going through the motions, or forcing myself to go through the motions so that I can get a certificate to show that my year is not futile. There is nothing else that I desperately want to attain, and I didn't shed any blood, sweat and tears to get anything.
It felt like school again, where my motivation to study came from the fear of repeating and the desire to write course reviews. Just that now there is even less to fear, except for losing my job and having no income.
My initial plan was to stay in this job until I'm 45 and then quit to teach tuition until I save enough money to retire. I don't think it's gonna work lol. The person I always want to impress at work is not here anymore, so now I don't want to work hard. (such a stupid reason right!) I haven't changed at all.
This year is full of distractions, maybe because I'm not busy enough after work. But work is sian.
Even though this year is so sian, time still passed really fast.
I wish I can find something that I am willing to work hard for soon.
OK HAPPY NEW YEAR
